Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Oh! Comments?

Man, I did think it was weird that I hadn't gotten a single comment
since I started the new blog, but I rarely get them, so I didn't
think more about it. A reader (thanks Steve!) pointed out that he
had posted and the comments weren't appearing, and did I maybe
have a setting on that was waiting for me to approve the comments?

I went looking, and I found 14 comments I didn't know about! Oh my,
they were all so wonderful and loving and supportive. Thanks so
much Manly Geek, Steve, David, Phil, and a few more. Wow. I got
such a warm rush, reading them all at once. I don't feel so alone.
Thank you all, so much! I guess I'm not as good a techno-geek as
I thought. I'm glad I found them all now, though. I've turned off
moderation mode, so hopefully the comments will all go up.

Today was pretty darned neutral. Just worked, and thought a lot.
I keep wishing for a magical rescue, I think. I don't know how to
fix the brain chemicals so I can feel happy, nothing else seems
to work. I see the Psychiatrist on April 4th and hope to try
different drugs. Until then I'm just on hold, I guess. But I
now expect anything I try to work for awhile, and then stop working.
I don't have a lot of hope for them, but I have to keep trying.

I think the therapy will be interesting, but again, I've been
such an introspective person my whole life, I'm pretty familiar
with everything that goes on "upstairs". I don't delude myself
a whole lot, so I'm not sure what I will get out of it that is
new information. Maybe just some tips and tricks that might help.

Anyways, please - keep commenting! I enjoyed them so much!


Anonymous said...

Just so's you don't feel completly alone, I've been struggling the past few days with frustration that I'm not really doing anything therapudic. This from a man who goes to 4 12 step meetings a week. (Now is that 48 steps or 12 x 12 x 12 x 12 steps?)

David Cummer

Susan Grandys said...

Well the 12 x 12 x 12 x 12 steps would certainly keep you busy and out of trouble :)

Big Phil said...

I just thought you were behind with your comment approvals :)