Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Oh! Comments?

Man, I did think it was weird that I hadn't gotten a single comment
since I started the new blog, but I rarely get them, so I didn't
think more about it. A reader (thanks Steve!) pointed out that he
had posted and the comments weren't appearing, and did I maybe
have a setting on that was waiting for me to approve the comments?

I went looking, and I found 14 comments I didn't know about! Oh my,
they were all so wonderful and loving and supportive. Thanks so
much Manly Geek, Steve, David, Phil, and a few more. Wow. I got
such a warm rush, reading them all at once. I don't feel so alone.
Thank you all, so much! I guess I'm not as good a techno-geek as
I thought. I'm glad I found them all now, though. I've turned off
moderation mode, so hopefully the comments will all go up.

Today was pretty darned neutral. Just worked, and thought a lot.
I keep wishing for a magical rescue, I think. I don't know how to
fix the brain chemicals so I can feel happy, nothing else seems
to work. I see the Psychiatrist on April 4th and hope to try
different drugs. Until then I'm just on hold, I guess. But I
now expect anything I try to work for awhile, and then stop working.
I don't have a lot of hope for them, but I have to keep trying.

I think the therapy will be interesting, but again, I've been
such an introspective person my whole life, I'm pretty familiar
with everything that goes on "upstairs". I don't delude myself
a whole lot, so I'm not sure what I will get out of it that is
new information. Maybe just some tips and tricks that might help.

Anyways, please - keep commenting! I enjoyed them so much!

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Just so's you don't feel completly alone, I've been struggling the past few days with frustration that I'm not really doing anything therapudic. This from a man who goes to 4 12 step meetings a week. (Now is that 48 steps or 12 x 12 x 12 x 12 steps?)

David Cummer

Susan Grandys said...

Well the 12 x 12 x 12 x 12 steps would certainly keep you busy and out of trouble :)

Big Phil said...

I just thought you were behind with your comment approvals :)