Friday, August 18, 2006

The phone company runs the universe

It's the weekend. Finally. These last 2 weeks at work were really
tough. I found I was taking it too seriously and getting really
frazzled. I felt rather ill from the glucose levels going awry and
then towards the end of the day something really stupid
happened and I'd had it. I went and found a friend and blew off
steam for quite awhile. By the end we were laughing and I felt a
lot better. I don't know what I would do without my friends.
Probably explode.

I'm really wondering about the universe. It seems like the lessons I'm
getting are ones I don't need. I think I'm getting someone else's
messages. Maybe the universe gets wires crossed, like the phone
company.

I've also been wishing a lot for karmic payback and recompense for
all the good I've tried to do in the world and only got back pain,
meaness, carelessness and stupidity. I don't want revenge, that is
not who I am. I just want really good things to happen to me for a
change. I don't want that to be a childish wishing that can't ever
happen. I want it to be real.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I've always been fascinated by the way life works itself out. I make no bones about it, I'm a pure Calvinist which means I believe (among many other things) that there are no coincidences and everything is working towards a greater plan. Those lessons that you are learning right now may seem pointless and irrelevant, but the fact that you are learning these lessons is not an accident nor fluke and because you are learning them NOW isn't a fluke either. I have more personal experience stories about this than you would believe.

If you are looking for answers as to why and why now, you might not know for a while as things haven't played out quite yet and to compound things further, it could be possible that the real student to these lessons ISN'T you. It could be one of your observers is the real student, learning from your actions and reactions, learning how to best deal with a situation can be two fold:
1) I'm going to resolve this like Sue did
2) I'm going to NOT do what Sue did
and infact, you may be the unwitting teacher to someone else.

Karmic Payback is always a given as one's actions will always result in a consequence deserving of the action. Maybe not immediately, but I've got to believe that the natural laws of the Universe dictate this. You can't get away with anything to too long before nature compensates.

Susan Grandys said...

I would be facinated to hear some of your experiences that bear this out.

I suspect I am the teacher in the reacent cases. It is a lesson I know well about speaking out immediately and not let things go on for years. The time factor makes things much worse.

I don't see the Karmic payback thing at all. I've been waiting my whole life, and the it is more of the same. I do my very, very best to help people and get bitten hard in almost every case. I can't imagine this is how it is supposed to work. I feel like I am doing the right thing, and don't want to give up on trying to make life better. But it just doesn't bear out.

If life waits much longer I'll be dead, and I just don't get it at all.

Anonymous said...

Hey Sue!

The whole key to karmic payback or Divine Justice is very peculiar in nature. As I said, someone can go head and be a jerk and stab you in the back and be generally unpleasant for only so long before justice and fairness need to be restored, and the forces that are, will restore it.

But here's the catch: you can't control when this justice is administered, it had to happen in it's proper time and when it happens, it's my experience that you will rarely have the pleasure in seeing it, though while frustrating to think about, I believe to prevent you - in a moment of compassion and genuine concern - from helping.

Vengeance is not yours to administer. You're far too kind and nice to do something something like that, besides, revenge (except in the rarest of circumstances) is very seldom worth the expense in energy. Your vengeance will never be as powerful as if you let nature take care of it for you.

But if you are doing what is right, keep going. (BTW: we could launch into a really interesting conversation about the meaning of "What is right", that could be interesting) You keep doing the best you can, being the best person you can be and as helpful and kind as you can be. Things will resolve themselves.

Susan Grandys said...

Sigh. I wished I truly belived this.
Mostly it all seems like random chaos.
Some days I think it has meaning, and then there are the rest of the days.

I don't really know "What is right". I feel like I'm doing good things, but all I have to go on is my gut feeling. No real facts. Maybe I'm actively doing the wrong things, and dont' recognize it. (Well one does have to consider that possibility - but I'd rather just go on thinking I'm doing "right" things!)