Saturday, June 28, 2008


You know you are getting old when you enjoy NOT doing things,
as much as you enjoy doing things. It used to be that I always
had to be going somewhere, or actively meeting with people,
going to a party, catching a friend's band in a bar.

This summer, I really feel like I've slowed down. I enjoy
watching a video, playing a game, walking around my yard and
looking at the masses of flowers that seem to be everywhere.
The warm breezes and lush greenness gives everything a sleepy,
dreamy quality. Like it is all a picture book, and not quite
real, but I don't want to wake up from the dream.

One morning this week, I drank some Ethiopian coffee from
Caribou (super caffeinated!) and the whole world felt like it
snapped into focus. I was vividly aware of my surroundings
on my drive to work. It was weird. It is like I really am
asleep most of the time, and it takes a big dose of coffee
to make me see things are they really are.

I would drink more coffee, but after awhile it makes my heart
skip beats, which is rather uncomfortable. So I guess I'll
just drift along, in my sleepy world....

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Pooh, Pooh!

Yes, it is back to the work grind, after such a nice weekend.
I want the entire summer off to play! Not that I've actually
had a summer off in a very long time.

So little time to play as an adult. We work the bulk of our
lives away, never getting to really enjoy our hard earned money.
The whole system seems rather wrong. You have time off when you
are young and have no money, or when you are really, really old,
and are too tired and creaky to have adventures.

Summer breezes whisper into my mind, "Come out, come out!
Why are you in that office building, with all those machines?
Look at how decked out I am with trees and flowers, just for
you. Why are you working?"

Hush. I have 3 conference calls in a row, and then I have to
set up these Linux machines, and run these 100 testcases....
oh, bother! It is all passing me by.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Friend waters beer for party (hoping that it will grow!)

The Peonies finally make a showing


Yesterday was the perfect day. It was 80 degrees, sunny, breezy,
and a great day to enjoy the Solstice, longest day, and Cay's
birthday barbeque. We invited a small group of people to have
a lay back day to grill, talk and soak up the summer weather,
that has finally decided to come.

There were 10 of us, and we ate and talked and just enjoyed
being outside. It must have been fun, it went for 8 hours!
One of those days you are just glad to be alive, and being
with your friends. I would like a ton more of those days in
my life.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Good = Nothing to say

Nothing new, really. I haven't said much, because there is just
nothing to report. I guess that is a good thing!

Work has been fine, health has been fine, home is fine.
How dull! Actually I've been enjoying work and enjoying summer.
I still haven't managed to ride my bike, even though I pulled
it out of the basement and got it all ready. This weekend, for
sure? Gotta kick up that exercise....

Still working on improving Japanese reading and writing, having
a ball watching a pile of the new Doctor Who and Torchwood T.V.
shows from England. Practicing new songs for Karaoke. Not much
in the stress department.

Too much partying in store (for my waistline). A Birthday party
tonight for all the friends June birthdays (there is a passel of
them). Tomorrow a relaxed barbeque for Cay's Birthday, and to
enjoy the lovely weather.

Things are good (finally), I hope they stay that way all summer!

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Me and my show are back online

Yes indeed, after a 2 month hiatus, I just put up a new (very
short) show. I had received a 10 minute piece from a listener,
so I put that up, and added 5 minutes of musings and thoughts
I've been having on fairness. Get it, as usual at:

Then I finally got inspired enough to continue and contacted the
guy in Finland I was supposed to interview. He agreed to do the
interview today, and we were off and running.

I used SIP (Gizmo) instead of Skype to do the call. The connection
was much better and faster than Skype, I always have problems with
overseas calls on Skype. However the recording feature was more
uneven. My voice was much louder and echo-y than with Call
Recorder. Nevertheless, it is a much better option for overseas
calls. There is someone I've wanted to interview in Australia
for quite awhile, this would make that more possible.

I also have a line on two more people to do interviews. July 15th
will be my 3 year Anniversary of doing Uncomfortable Questions.
Kind of neat that I've been doing it that long!

My healing proceeds, my doc says at the 3 month mark, my foot
should stop swelling and hurting. (That is about 3 more weeks).
I hope I can walk farther than I can now! 1 mile and I'm totally
done for. I'm not giving up on traveling overseas yet (that takes
huge amounts of walking, compared to a road trip in the states).
I'll give it a few more months to see where I'm at. With my luck
I'll be fine, but gas prices will be totally prohibitive!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Hungry and tired, but pleased

I'm so hungry! It is another 900 calorie day. Some of those are
pretty rough. Tomorrow is 1200 calories. I want to go to bed,
just so I can wake up and eat breakfast! Is it working? I really
don't know. I've lost about 6 pounds, but it is the same weight
I keep losing over and over, because something happens (surgery,
winter, plain old hunger) and I put it right back on.

In other news, work is going spectacularly well. They really like
me! I guess if one can't be independently wealthy (my first choice),
this isn't bad. They have done extremely well by me this year,
and shown their appreciation in a myriad of means - way, way
beyond what I would have expected.

I really am going to bed. I'm very short on sleep - I keep staying
up too late, and then the trucks and tractors come rolling in
at 6:30 a.m. every morning for the huge road construction project
on the street out front. They are still putting in gas pipes, and
starting to run the temporary water pipes, before they remove the
whole road bed. This will probably go on all summer. I think they
should do it more quietly. Or at least not start until a more
civilized hour. Like 9 am or so...

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

A Nice Day...Or Is It?

It was so beautiful out today, on the drive to work. The sky was
the most gorgeous shade of blue, the trees were the perfect shade
of thick green. The lakes were sparkling blue, the clouds were
white and billowy. The sun was warm and inviting, the temperature
perfect. I was suddenly taken with just how captivating it all

My first reaction was to thank the Goddess, or whatever created
this world. My second reaction was to remember I didn't really
believe that. That even if the world was created, I think it
may have been a larger co-creation of which we are a part.
Something much bigger, stranger, wilder, and vibrant than the
typical visions of the Gods. Then I was amazed at how trivial
mankind could be, but how mighty and amazing and rich in dreams
and imagination. Could such passion and striving be for nothing?
So I didn't even know who to thank for such a lovely day...

Is being grateful a part of our nature, or is it drummed
into us from birth? Are we "supposed" to feel grateful or is
it a true thing? Then I was amused that I couldn't just enjoy
the beauty without going into my typical analyzing reverie.
Thats what it is like in my head, all the time.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

Floating Along

Floating along. I am enjoying things, but can't get motivated to
do much. I should get back to doing my show, but I can't seem
to get started. I guess I needed a break after this tough winter
of sickness and medical procedures.

I'm hoping motivation will strike me on it's own, and I can
get back to creating and achieving. In the meantime, I'm studying
my Japanese writing, exercising, playing some video games and
watching too much Doctor Who, and enjoying having summer
weather again.

We looked up how to build a sound booth, and are making plans
to build one for Cayenne for his recording. Our street has
been closed for construction, and when they aren't digging it
up, we can't believe how quiet the neighborhood is! (We live on
a very busy street). We can hear birds, and the neighbor raking,
and sounds we've never heard here before, between the trucks
and the planes - it is kind of a constant din.

Neither one of us is terribly handy, so this should be really
entertaining to see if we really can build it. Could be a comedy
in itself!

Friday, June 06, 2008

Catching up on fantasy land!

Yikes, this week went by fast!
A friend gave us the 9th Doctor Who episodes, and we were lost.
I haven't seen Doctor Who since the Tom Baker years, and had
no idea what was going on with the series.

Watched the entire 13 episodes this week, and were completely
sucked in. What a fun show! I love the mad creativity of that
show, and totally loved the new Doctor. I was dubious that anyone
could take the place in my heart for the 4th Doctor, but
Christopher Eccleston completely did it!

He reminds me a lot of myself - (not necessarily a good thing!)
I am so sad he did only one season, I didn't want to let him go!

I don't care how old I get - I still love wonderful geeky Science
Fiction and Fantasy things. My imagination never becomes less.

Sunday, June 01, 2008

Saturday was a nice day, and then a quick hailstorm

The spring flowers - really late! It's June, darn it!

This is some party

Do I appreciate being alive? After being scared about my heart test
last week, I thought a bit more about being alive. I don't want to
die, I can't imagine ever being ready for it. My body is already
failing in lots of small ways, I'm hoping it doesn't start failing
in big ways, anytime soon.

So unfair. So cruel, this process called life.

I wish we could choose how long we could stay. Like you choose
how long you can go on vacation, before you run out of money and
have to return to work.

I would overstay my welcome, like the last guest at a party,
unwilling to leave, because there may be nothing for me at home.
This isn't the funnest party ever, but it is an interesting one.