Thursday, March 26, 2009

To change or not to change...

Everyday is so much the same. Fight my weight, work too much,
get stressed out, try to get some sleep. Over and over. I've
probably even written this same thing in my blog.

How to break out? How to change? I always mean to, with all my
heart..... and nothing changes.

Humans are so weird - we crave change, and yet spend all our
effort making routines and tradition. We are comforted by the
same and the known. Change may be exciting, but it often is
quite uncomfortable!

I feel like I am running out of time to make the changes.
That it will be just like this for another 20 years, or until
I die. And that makes me uncomfortable too. Great, so I'm
uncomfortable if I don't change, but change is uncomfortable.
A dilemma for a comfort hound....

I really do like comfort - not to be hungry, cold, stressed,
to have a nice bed, and nice things. I suppose a good portion
of my life has been in the pursuit of comfort.

And yet, somehow that in itself is not enough.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


It seems like work is escalating more every day. Wouldn't you think
it would reach a point where it couldn't get busier? - and yet it
does. I was running around frantically all day trying to bludgeon
this product into test. I'm not sure if I won, or not.

I had a pounding headache by the afternoon (and I almost never get
headaches). But driving home and seeing the snow is almost entirely
gone, made everything better.

The good part is the thyroid, adrenal rebuilders and DHEA must be
helping. In the past, after a day like that I would crash on the
couch, unable to move. Now I still have a bit of energy left over
to work out, and do a little gaming or movie watching.

The whole rest of the summer promises to be this crazy. I guess I'd
better get used to it!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Warm :)

I would be interested to see the retail numbers for March for
Minnesota. It was above 50 yesterday, and 56 degrees today.
The half of the population that wasn't walking around the lakes
with their dogs, were shopping. All the stores and parking lots
were packed.

I've not seen that many cars, people, and dogs in a long time.
This city goes a little crazy when the snow melts and it warms
up. It's like everyone has been huddled in their houses all
winter, and all burst forth in a big mass when the sun shines.
We even saw 2 teenage girls walking down the street in shorts,
tank tops and bare feet. Pretty brave, as there are still melting
piles of ice and snow everywhere.

Tomorrow it is supposed to be 60 - it will be hard to keep
everyone at work!

Sunday, March 08, 2009


Getting used to not having the old dog around. It is lots quieter,
and a LOT less work and care-taking. The remaining dog is very
happy and amazingly well behaved. He really likes being an only
child. We suspected he would, he is really competitive, and hated
being in 2nd place in our attentions.

Now that we have more of our lives back, not taking care of the sick
dog, we are thinking about taking a road trip in May to the east

Haven't been on a road trip in a couple of years, and really have
the itch to go! Hopefully winter is over by then... it seems
eternal at the moment. More snow and cold forecasted for this week.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Murphy - R.I.P

Its over....

The old dog finally went this evening.

He was a couple of weeks past 15 years old.
It was astonishing he lasted that long.

He was always very much his own dog, and did everything on his
terms. He was also an annoying, pushy bast*rd, but he had one
fine pampered life, full of treats, travel, adventure, and comfort.

I guess that's all we could all ask for.

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Where does the time go?

I excitingly spent today paying bills, balancing the checkbook and
refinancing the house. Now it is 4 pm and I haven't done anything
but that. Yesterday was very similar - by the time all the computer
fixing and errands were done - it was night.

What happened to resting and having fun on the weekends?!
I'm good at getting all that kind of stuff done, but it makes me
crabby because it uses up anything I have resembling free time.

I still have the tail end of my cold after 2 whole weeks. I just
worked out for the first time in weeks - not because I feel great
but because I'm so sick of physical inactivity.

The 1st warm day, I'm going for a walk, for sure! My foot is finally
healed up enough to do a little walking after 11 months. However
it just snowed 6 inches last week, and it was -1 F. last night.
Not a promising start to March.

I'm toying with the idea of doing a couple of more Uncomfortable
Questions shows. I've taken time off since July, and it might be
time to try another. My shows are still getting about 1000 downloads
a month, even without putting up anything new. It means there is
still an interest in it, so it would be fun to get something new
out there.

However, with my work schedule between now and September (read
insane), I don't want to take on any more work. Hmmmm maybe I'll
do one, and take my time editing it. Or maybe I'll wait until
it's warmer out!