Sunday, September 12, 2010

The dreams come home

My dreams came back. I used to have wild and
wonderful dreams, but they went away when I hit
menopause. For the last 3 years if I dreamed,
it was about doing routine daily tasks. Really
boring! I also couldn't tell myself a creative
story, which I had been doing my whole life.

The stories have also started up again. It is a
relief, and all probably due to balancing my
hormones and adding in more thyroid and DHEA.

It's not very glorious that creativity is ruled by
chemicals. But it is nice to have them back.
I was starting to feel like a robot!

What curious creatures are humans.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

The year of surgery

I name 2010 the year of surgery. Time to get it all fixed.
I had surgery in February, the 3rd one on my foot to fix
the big toe that got pulled under the 2nd one, complications
of the original surgery where I snapped the posterior tibial
tendon in 2005.

Then I had very minor surgery to remove a lump from the inside
of my cheek that I kept biting and making it worse.

Now I'm recovering from rotator cuff surgery for 2 torn rotator
cuffs in my left arm.

Later this year, Cayenne is considering getting his foot fused,
due to terrible arthritis from some old injuries. I'll have to
take care of him for a couple of months to I gotta get this arm
functional again.

It makes for a tough year, but we have hopes that it will make
2011 a much easier, pain-free year.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Reflections on being human

Do you find yourself caring about nothing, and then the next
minute caring deeply about everything?

Being human is such a contrary thing.

I found myself thinking quite a lot today about being a human.
I'm not sure I like it.

Being confident one minute, and the next being in a social
situation where you are all elbows and awkwardness.
Loving life, and then thinking people really are a brutish,
nasty lot.

Amazed that we want to save the poor birds drownding in oil
filled waters, like good custodians of the earth - and then
realizing we hunt for sport, and did such things like wipe
out the buffalo.

Feeling smart and scientific as we reach for the stars, and
then taking a hard look at the strange things we believe
without proof in our religions. And most find no contradiction.

Feeling joy, despair, exhilaration, boredom, angst, plodding
dullness, frustration, happiness, on and on, the craziness,
the bundle of frazzled energy flinging ourselves onward towards
death. What a strange creature are these humans.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Wonders never cease!

I just posted a new Uncomfortable Questions show for the
1st time since last July. It took me 8 hours to do, and
I remember why I don't do them very often!

Anyways it is up at http://suegrandys.libsyn.com/

I promise not to do it again, well unless the listeners
do send me the answers I asked for. Then I'll do one real
soon.