Thursday, January 05, 2012

Things That Meant Something, Once

Hello, my old blog - I had nearly forgotten about you. You were so important to me once. Then life continued to happen, and more than a year raced by.

I also wanted to do more podcasts this year on my show I once did weekly,
Somehow that didn't happen either.

I was starting to paint oil floral picture, and the beginning of the
canvas still sits untouched for over a year.

What still matters? My home? My pets? My partner in life? My job?
They do.

And the rest? I think they still matter, and I hope I return to them.
I hope I get the chance to bring things back into my life.

Here's to a long life, with a lot of time to do the things that matter.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

The dreams come home

My dreams came back. I used to have wild and
wonderful dreams, but they went away when I hit
menopause. For the last 3 years if I dreamed,
it was about doing routine daily tasks. Really
boring! I also couldn't tell myself a creative
story, which I had been doing my whole life.

The stories have also started up again. It is a
relief, and all probably due to balancing my
hormones and adding in more thyroid and DHEA.

It's not very glorious that creativity is ruled by
chemicals. But it is nice to have them back.
I was starting to feel like a robot!

What curious creatures are humans.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

The year of surgery

I name 2010 the year of surgery. Time to get it all fixed.
I had surgery in February, the 3rd one on my foot to fix
the big toe that got pulled under the 2nd one, complications
of the original surgery where I snapped the posterior tibial
tendon in 2005.

Then I had very minor surgery to remove a lump from the inside
of my cheek that I kept biting and making it worse.

Now I'm recovering from rotator cuff surgery for 2 torn rotator
cuffs in my left arm.

Later this year, Cayenne is considering getting his foot fused,
due to terrible arthritis from some old injuries. I'll have to
take care of him for a couple of months to I gotta get this arm
functional again.

It makes for a tough year, but we have hopes that it will make
2011 a much easier, pain-free year.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Reflections on being human

Do you find yourself caring about nothing, and then the next
minute caring deeply about everything?

Being human is such a contrary thing.

I found myself thinking quite a lot today about being a human.
I'm not sure I like it.

Being confident one minute, and the next being in a social
situation where you are all elbows and awkwardness.
Loving life, and then thinking people really are a brutish,
nasty lot.

Amazed that we want to save the poor birds drownding in oil
filled waters, like good custodians of the earth - and then
realizing we hunt for sport, and did such things like wipe
out the buffalo.

Feeling smart and scientific as we reach for the stars, and
then taking a hard look at the strange things we believe
without proof in our religions. And most find no contradiction.

Feeling joy, despair, exhilaration, boredom, angst, plodding
dullness, frustration, happiness, on and on, the craziness,
the bundle of frazzled energy flinging ourselves onward towards
death. What a strange creature are these humans.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Wonders never cease!

I just posted a new Uncomfortable Questions show for the
1st time since last July. It took me 8 hours to do, and
I remember why I don't do them very often!

Anyways it is up at

I promise not to do it again, well unless the listeners
do send me the answers I asked for. Then I'll do one real

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Mostly on Facebook, these days

I may still blog here when I am in the mood, but for the few of
you who read this, you should probably follow my Facebook postings:

All my friends are over there, so I've gotten much more in the
habit of posting over there, nearly daily. For whatever you think
about Facebook, it is a more satisfying social experience than
throwing these blogs out into the void.

I feel like I'm keeping up on my friends daily lives, and I'm
enjoying that.

If I have something I want to go more into depth on, I will post
it here.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

Another Adventure

So work announced this week that they were sending me off to
California, to 2 of the corporate offices next week. I'm going
to miss all the Christmas parties, and when I get back the
Company shuts down until after new years. So I get a trip and
a break for over 3 weeks. I'll for get what the office looks like!

I didn't really want to go, and then the weather here got
suddenly winterish, so now I'm sort of looking forward to it.
I will be in the San Jose area from next Sunday to Tuesday,
then it is down to Orange County until Friday. I'll be
near Laguna Beach, and hope I'll get a little time to see it.
Last time I was at headquarters there wasn't time - and it's
been 24 years since I've seen it. I loved it back then,
I wonder if it has changed a lot.

So this weekend was a little shopping, going through clothes, and
preparing for the trip. Not much time next Saturday to get ready,
so I'm doing it all this weekend.

Another Mini-adventure, and a nice break from routine!