Dreaming

Dreaming of a body that doesn't age and hurt. One that is strong
and can take me where I want to go, traveling and taking in the
world. Or one that can even last through an afternoon of shopping.

Dreaming of the ocean, living by water in a quaint seaside village.
Watching the ships and the sun sparking on the water, hearing the
lap of the waves to lull me to sleep. Living a less frantic life
full of nature and sunshine and peace.

Dreaming of creative work that satisfies the soul, rather than
stunning it into silence.

Dreaming of happy pets, happy friends, and happy me.

Is there any path to make this reality?
I can't find one, because I am running too fast.

Dreaming.

Ah Mytstic!

My legs hurt! Let's see, my knee went out slightlty this morning,
but no excuse for stopping on vacation. Drove around Mystic and
Noank and lots of harbors and beaches. Drove up to Wavery, RI
and back thorough Stonnington. Lots of stone walls, and zillions
of trees changing colors. Not the best year for tree colors, but
we have seen some.

Shopped in Mystic and got a neat hat and Chris got a ornate business
card holder. Ice cream cones at the Drawbridge Ice Cream place in
Mystic. Reslly, really good ice cream eaten by the river. Lunch at
a clam shack on Highway 1. Fried clams and really good clam chowder.
Hoping to be hungry soon, because still haven't gotten to the
Skippers Dock, a place that we liked so much last year.

Walked around the Mystic Aquarium (overpriced, but neat Sea Lions),
when through Old Mystic shopping area and got some fudge for the
next leg of the trip. Resting at the hotel before dinner.
Tomorrow - off to Staten Island, NY.

Real food, at last!

Cayenne and I left home at 6 am Saturday morning for our adventures
to the East. Drove all day to try to get as far as we could.
Passed Chicago and ended up the 1st night somewhere between
Lansing and Flint Michigan. Stopped at the only hotel out in that
dark wasteland,a basic Quality Inn.

Then up early, and off to Canada. Drove around Toronto and had
lunch. Toronto, especially Yonge street was a vibrant and rocking
place on a Sunday. Fascinating city, but oh, the traffic! The
freeways were crammed, seemingly unable to handle the amount of
people in that area.

Drove down to the Canadian side of Niagara Falls. We stayed in a
Comfort Inn. Nice enough for that kind of place, but I really should
have picked a nicer place, rooms aren't all that expensive there,
if booked online through www.bookings.com.

On Monday, we did the Falls. Took the Walk behind the Falls tour,
took a ride on Maid of the Mist, and rode the Skylor tower to the
top to see the falls lit up at night. All totally worth it. What
wasn't worth it was the food. We had had bad road food up to this
point barring one decent Japanese meal in Toronto. In Niagara, all
food costs about triple what it does anywhere else, and the quality
was awful. We mostly ate ice cream at the Casino to keep alive.

On Tuesday we came back to the States, and drove across New York,
and Massachusetts, to Mystic Connecticut. I couldn't get into the
Inn I was planning on, so went to the Hyatt Place. After 3 nights
of bad sleep on hard beds in cheap hotels, I finally have a beautiful
room, and a soft bed!

And better yet, we our first full meal in 4 days at Noah's in
Stonington. Fresh Scallops, Clam Chowder, big salad, and really good
beer. I feel human again! We drove around Mystic at night, and now
are relaxing in our beautiful hotel room. I highly recommend this
Hyatt. Right next to the Aquarium, the Seaport, and Old Mystic,
which we will explore tomorrow.

Really looking forward to a good nights sleep.

Its getting away from me

Time that is. The last few weeks have been a blur of overwork.
I just worked really long hours every day last week, an additional
14 hours this weekend, and with no rest am back at it for next
week.

I just have to get through 5 more days and then it is vacation!
Off to the east coast again. We are hoping to see Cay's
grandmother one more time. She is 100 1/2 and not doing so well -
under constant nurse care. We are also planning a stop in
Niagara again (on the Canadian side, this time), and maybe
back to Mystic, CT to spend a couple of days. Depends on what
happens with the grandmother.

Usually the weather is nice this time of year - but we are
supposed to get 2-3 inches of snow tonight??!!!! Unreal.

Back at it....

But I never left. Back to work tomorrow. I absolutely was going to
take this weekend off and rest up from work, but I was actually
dreaming about a problem I saw on Friday before I left.

I could not leave it alone. I kept logging back in to work and trying
things, trying to get a handle on it. I think I have some ideas now
on the cause, and can't wait to get back to try some more things.

Some people just don't know how to rest and have a good time!
I am a problem solver by nature, and will worry at a problem until
it is taken care of. I'm like that about everything in my life,
(and that is not always a good thing).

I hate failing more than anything. I really ought to lighten up....
So weird. In my 20's I was such a party girl. Who the heck am I now?

Where is the fun stuff?

So - spent the last 2 weeks working like a maniac, trying to make
a project schedule. First deadline is this coming Wednesday. Then
comes another push. Kinda tired and stressed out. (No surprise).

I worked 15 hours on Friday, and another 9 on Saturday and I'm just
burnt out today. I should be out there enjoying this 85 degree,
end of summer-ish type day. Bleah. The couch is too comfy.....

Not much else... Saw the doctor, more hormone adjustments. We
keep upping the DHEA and it keeps going lower. I'm probably burning
it all up from the stress. I feel o.k. but not great, by any means.
I should exercise more and eat even healthier, if that is possible.

David is still in Fargo - and his cat has happily settled in. He has
a whole house to get into trouble in, and other pets to chase around.
Though I won't miss him - he wakes up at 6 am every morning and
starts crashing around!

So life continues, in a pretty normal fashion. I really could use
more fun. Vacation is still 5 weeks away.... :(

Ugh...

So hungover. What a party it was! I had an amazing time and
so did everyone else. The Tiki drinks were deadly. The last
people left about 1 am, so we clocked in 10 hours of partying.
When will I figure out that I'm too old for this, and don't
recover as well from excess as I used to?

Our old roommate Drew is visiting, and the 3 of us are staggering
around the house moaning and cleaning up the party remnants.

We are now looking for something nutritious to eat, to help
the bodies recover. Leftover chips just don't cut it.

Now waiting for David to drop off his cat - he has to go to Fargo,
as he just found out his brother is in the hospital, and is
heading off to help on the farm. So we get a little furry guest
for some number of weeks. I'm sure he will try to help the
window replacement guys tomorrow - that furball gets into everything!